Tuesday, August 31, 2010
"It's how I want to see it. Whether the glass is half-empty or half-full. Apparently, its half-empty. "When all smiles turn into ashes, it's when we all know, you are gone. F.O.R.E.V.E.R. Second day without you, life appears to be going on normally... When deep in my heart, I know it's not. I am still missing you... and is still grieved about your death. Where are you right now? Where are you? Can someone just tell me!?I think I am going crazy soon. When I'm alone, there will be two demonic voices inside my head. One telling me to gather myself up quickly, and look at life more positively, whereas the other voice is just keeps on reminding me how sad I am indeed feeling towards my cousin's death. Only my true feelings can be revealed in my blog post. I can't display them out, not in front of my family members or friends. I have to be okay. I have to be strong. I don't want to worry anyone. Not anymore. I totally seek comfort in writing out my true feelings.If only, my sadness and emptiness could be replaced by all these endless writing. Even if reality hits home, I still can choose not to face it, and run away from it, right?Bye, Sze Hua. You know you aren't going to be the same anymore.* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_
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