Saturday, December 5, 2009
(From left to right: Fishy DongHae, HanGeng, Man of gestures Siwon, Maknae* of the group Kyuhyun)
In my opinion, I really think man just look gorgeous in suit.
* Maknae refers to the youngest in korean.//
Have you ever contemplate all the meanings that the phrase "your life" has for you? .....
An unexpected nightmare strike me during my sub-consciousness(when I was sleeping). Lazy to elaborate further on it, I would rather want to share with you some of the after-thoughts I had after the nightmare. The nightmare brought to me the fact that I will die one day. The nightmare let me experienced the panic surging within me as I waited anxiously and on pins for the death god to bring my last breath away. As I waited, a torrent of images cascaded through my mind. I realised all a sudden, I still have so many things not yet done and have not tried before. I must not die. Even though I am teetering on the brink of metal collapse, I cannot die.
Regrettably, even at the mature age of 14, I am still not mature, mentally and physically. I still fight and bicker with my younger brother and my older sister sometimes. After the nightmare, I start to look at the people around me differently. Family members are no longer the people I want them to show concern and care for me. In fact, I want to be the one to show affection to them. I want to let them know they are important, and I want to protect them. My siblings, I will choose not to fight with them anymore. I want to only create happy and joyful memories with them. Even when I am dying at an old age or from some illness, I want to reminiscence only of cheerful collections. Hoping that thinking of them will lessen my pain of leaving this world. My friends, I want to be a support to them. I want to help them with every knowledge I possess. I want to help putting a smile on their faces.
I want to die with a calm mind as I relinquished my tenuous grip on my consciousness. I want to die, not fearing of death.
2012, is only a few years later.* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_
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